Use Me

Use Me
By Muriel Palanca

Walking down the street at night,
Inhaling the urban decay,
You entrap my body with your arms from behind
And you sweep me into a dark alleyway.
You are the drug, the fix I need,
I yield to you for I am defeated.
You keep me falsely satisfied
With a lie that we both needed.
Safely in danger, enslaved by your eyes,
Igniting a burn in my cells,
Savoring each of your desperate sighs,
An erotic heavenly hell.
Trying to control an itch in my skin
Forcing you closer to me.
Longing for you to feel me from within,
Setting my inhibitions free.
Your lips steal my breath, if only to keep it,
Locked in your kiss, do whatever you will.
Push me as hard as you possibly can
Because you’re the only thing holding me still.
You awaken what has died inside
As you whisper words that aren’t true.
You know that I don’t mean it either.
When I say “I love you too”.
I’m yours to control, to manipulate
I’ll pretend since none of it is real.
Obsessed with the way your touch makes me numb,
For a moment the wounds seem to heal.
So cruel are your hands, to tempt and to tease
I beg yet you’re unforgiving.
You know what I want, this agonizing bliss,
Because I feel like I’m almost living.
Unbearable torture, this raw lust and passion,
Like honey you poisoned to satisfy my craving.
My back to the wall despite my intentions,
I deny that I need your saving.
Since love is a lie, the sweetest deception,
Use me to use you, I keep asking for more.
This false sense of feeling we both understand,
Because my heart is as empty as yours.